Change is inevitable, and that is why most people tend to detest it. If I remember correctly, I have always hated it for as long as my brain could summon up definite projections of my past life. Who would want to witness the things they've always valued just the way they are all fall down because of change? It's just the same damn thing that would constantly ensue in our lives, but on various occasions.

And just to cut this ill-equipped preface short, let me just articulate the fact that change DOES suck.

However, some alterations came to me in a very unusual approach last Friday and Saturday. Oh yes. Change has made some of my "evil" cells atrophy just by themselves because of being left exposed to the excessive goodness I, by all means, welcomed to come to me with open arms. Gah. To hell with that Recollection our school conducted for enticing me to commit myself into hallowed things.

But then again, if I hadn't gone to that Recollection...

- I wouldn't have vied for ownership over that cute orange Oxygen shirt against my mother (who didn't want to see me wearing it since she claims it hers)

• - I wouldn't have been mistaken as a freshman by three freshmen girls as I made my way to the gym last Friday morning (how I wished I could've strangled them for that - that was discrimination in my part)
• - I wouldn't have witnessed the ultimate shock of seeing both KC and teenoe donning shirts boasting the colors of hot pink and baby pink respectively.
• - I never would've begged on my knees for jocelyn's extra vigil candle (since, out of the sheer languor of remember things, I have forgotten mine)
• - I wouldn't have seen teenoe have this "Dora" nametag
• - I wouldn't have played the infamous Uno Stackos with the class in the verge of losing (by the time I was about to grab a certain piece and place it on top, the stack was all wobbly) and emerge from it victorious
• - I wouldn't have, with the whole of OLC, made a square out of a very long rope with blindfolds on our eyes (to hell with that paper-thing that kept on brushing the bottom of my nose throughout the activity)
• - I never would've had the chance to hug each and every one of my classmates for what seemed like 20 seconds (and say sorry to those people whom I've done injustice, both on purpose and subconsciously)
• - I never would've eaten at least FOUR times a day with Gx
• - I never would have decided to offer closure to the business regarding the "other side" (and let go of my twin brothers who've been a part of my life, even for just an undersized while)
• - I still wouldn't have appreciated a lot of things (and mostly people) more
• - My eyes would still be fastened from the fact that life is short (and tends to be unfair at times) that we'll just have to get used to it and make the most out of it while it lasts
• - I never would've seen Joyce and Chin share the same toothbrush (Joyce, this has got to be one of the most memorable things you couldn't possibly fail to bear in mind with just a snap)
• - I never would've had "sober sessions" with my hotshots, dana oreo.
• - I never would've had my very first serious confession ever (and never would have revealed my deepest, darkest hush-hushes to date, all of which I've sworn to keep in secrecy)
• - I never would've agreed to have a cheese pimiento sandwich for merienda
• - I never would've felt the urge to make amends for lots of things so much
• - I wouldn't have stuck up my nose, toddled down the aisle like in a catwalk, and talked all about the things in which I think I excel in
• - I never would've experienced praying the rosary and hitting the sack literally like a corpse alone in my bed surrounded by pitch-black darkness
• - I never would've memorized the five sorrowful mysteries of the most Holy Rosary in less than ten seconds
• - I never would've known that Patricia Batacan's middle initial was "Alvaran"
• - I never would've promised miss cua to listen to her lessons as an alternative for busying myself with other worthwhile things
• - I still would've been wishing certain people were dead
• - I never would've perfected Fr. Sonny's friend test (he himself never perfected it - not even once. Hah. In your face!)
• - I never would've listed my ALL sins down (they counted roughly up to 30+ sins. Beat that.)
• - I never would have known about miss fern's desire to reach out to me (since she found me aloof during that very first encounter in the chapel)
• - I never would've found out that going up and down from 1st to 5th floor can be accomplished in less than five minutes without a drop of sweat
• - I never would've had the opportunity to use dana's eskinol facial cleanser (for the first time) and joyce's sunsilk shampoo (the black one, which I found very interesting)
• - I never would've known Christine (Romero) and Janna well enough (and have "iyakan sessions" with them
• - I never would've had the chance to tell teenoe on how much we're willing to waste away some of our time just to get to her whenever she's in need
• - I never would've gotten to lend both of my ears to chin's "sensual stories" on her "sensuwal na kama"
• - I never would've known Fr. Sonny Arevalo SDB (did I really have to take his whole name down?) and hear some of his inspirational tales (he rawks, I tell you. He does!)
• - I never would've hugged him and smelled his "ambrosial" shirt (we both had Oxygen shirts on...)
• - I wouldn't have had the chance to squeeze my best friend in a tight hug for more than 20 seconds
• - I never would've come to realize that some things are just not meant to turn out the way we would want them to be
• - I never, for the first time in my whole life, would have missed my two pesky brothers
• - I never would have had a stinging clear picture of my greatest fear of being alone
• - I never would've felt the urge to say sorry to sr. marissa for wielding a brush last week in front of the chapel
• - I still never would have let my friends know how much they mean to me
• - I still would've been unaware that St. Paul logos are encrusted on every plate and cup in the school canteen
• - I never would've had karaoke sessions with Gx in joyce's house after ("quit playing games with my heart...")
• - I still would've had the urge to stab the one who stole jam's wallet in the neck
• - some things with still wouldn't have been changed for the better.
  
  Kudos to change for it has indeed made me feel holy, even for just a short while. Gusto ko nang maging mabait, for crying out loud.
  
  

change will never break us apart. OLC 05-06.