I guess it's safe to say that I've spent quite a number of days - or maybe even weeks - trying to figure out where I'd possibly end up in two months' time. In what university, that is. I had two fine choices to take my pick from (that is, of course, in line with my Biology course) and DLSU is definitely out of my list. Studying there requires too much bread and I don't think that’s something my parents can handle. Oh well.

UST's one great place to be, to which I could honestly entrust my whole future and formation entirely. I know I'd be getting so much from there and that its expertise lies on the track of my preference, but hell, I'm making a choice between UST and UP here. Kahit na sa Los Baños pa yan. I don't give a damn, man. Picking UP over the other would be too much of a hassle for me, I admit. I'd still have to board on to some place else roughly two hours away from home just to get to the campus in time and still sane. Its environment's a bit "masukal" but not to that dangerously masukal extent. Fairly far from "civilization", fairly full of people who stare into the nothingness of space during breaks (as I have seen during my first trip), very much like that most sought after Diliman campus. I mean, it's not at all that bad. I'd be going home weekly or whenever I wish to. It's all up to me. And besides, may kasama naman akong kaibigan. We'd be sharing a unit, or maybe a room together. Haha.

The rest of it, I bet, would sooner or later become welcomed surprises. Upon my word, they actually are NOW! Right this very moment! This very instant!

*groan*

It must be rather obvious that I'd rather not delve deep into it here. I've used up so much time reflecting over it to the point that I feel like I have not the thrill anymore to spill the juice about it. Kumbaga eh, naubusan na ako ng reaksyon. Goodness.

I would be missing a lot. A lot, I say.

And right this very moment, there is someone... or rather something... that I definitely do.

It must be that I’m just protractedly keeping myself in denial of such little, little things in life I uneasily am starting to think about often.

*groans*

Now it all just depends on how I’m putting things out there.

And oh, after that dream I just had about having my hair colored, I just might actually have it colored. Not the madumi/mabaho type, mind you!

"The power of Christ compels you..."