I've been thinking.

These proceedings happening recently just don't illustrate my typical hunger for conquest and cerebral comprehension anymore. Feels more like being drenched in beer and some other booze of which kind I do not wish to further speak of, if you may ask. Deteriorating zeal at its finest. I am gradually giving in. My enthusiasm's just been stubbed out by some other tempting force urging me to procrastinate and leave whatever good it is that I yearn for just around the bend.

Procrastinate. Ah, yes. How that term rings various jingles in my mojo mopped clean off the sharp understandings and wits. Without them, what else have I got? I am more of like an empty cigarette butt in the midst of dust and ashes. I am bound to be nothing.

Dammit. So much for assuming of being boundless.

While taking time off reflecting on stuff and planning to work on them, I think it's best if I don't just let it be at that. For all I care, I could've just left the thinking to someone else and let my idle brain and hands do the tough toil! It's just too bad and so sad that for the past few weeks, I haven't been taking heed. I've chosen to boogie all the qualms away and skip towards the more blithe level. Brethren, when will I ever learn?

I've finally seen you, the way you work, the way you flick your hands to exert a majestic pull on achievements. I'm not going to let those means get to me and shred my fervor into pieces of shit. This is where I've once found where I really belonged; the hit that I've been yearning to strike me back again for all this time. And now, I am making sure that it will find its way home to where it really goes once again.

It's just about time that I set my stuff up into working once more. Seriously. Kailangan nang banatan ang mga bagay-bagay ng matitinding plano na nararapat lamang na kalapat nito.

Hindi ko na hahayaan pang gumuhit sa aking lalamunan ang pait na matagal-tagal ko na ring sapilitang nilalasap.

Oh yeah.

Sheep.